Monday, November 8, 2010

4 months...

When we first started waiting, we were told 4-6 months. Soon after that it was updated to 4-8 months. I never got another "official" word from our agency after that so I never completely let go of the possibility of 4 months.....until last week.

Now we've been told to expect a 12 month wait for referral. I had a bumpy week last week. It wasn't easy to get to a good place with this news. But I'm there. I'm at peace. I don't actually think it is going to take 12 months. I don't know if that is wishful thinking or if it my "gut" or if God is putting it on my heart that it won't be that long. I know that it may very well be 12 months but I have prayed a lot and I am at peace with God's perfect timing. It helps that the other part of the equation that made this really bad news is not as big of a deal as I'd originally thought. I'm not ready to talk about that until we have more info but it's a relief.

It is hard to hit this 4 month mark, which I had been desperately looking forward to, and realize it's not the milestone I'd expected to be. But nonetheless I'm celebrating hitting the 4 month mark and praying that it's sooner, rather than later. But Your will be done, not mine.

15 comments:

  1. Ack. I'll be lifting you up in prayer my friend that He will give you peace beyond understanding about everything on your plate right now. This whole process is just so hard but take hold of the fact that He has already gone before you in this and He is not one second late with each step. {Hugs!}

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  2. I'm sorry for this bump in your progress. I know how hard it is to be looking forward to a date and then everything changes. I am curious about the hold up....is it due to many fewer relinquishments?? Because that is actually a trend I would have to celebrate as more families are able to remain intact. Or is it something else?

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  3. I'm praying for you too Christy! God is preparing a very special baby just for you!

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  4. You have such a good attitude. It has to be so hard but you such a great inspiration. Here's to thinking positive and four months down!

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  5. I am sorry. I totally understand. I was excited for one day at our 6 month mark. Then I found out the waits got longer. sigh. I have been praying for peace and I am doing much better than last week, but my heart is still sad. I realize there is so much unknown to when we will see our little girl. Hang in there, God knows!!

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  6. Ugh, that is truly the hardest part about adoption: the ever-changing timeline. It would be one thing to know from the outset that you'll be waiting 12 months. But to think you have four and then have that so drastically changed is so, so hard. I'm glad you've found peace, and I hope that your wait is so much shorter than predicted!

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  7. i am so glad you've found peace...this is so hard and waiting is so very stinky, but you are doing an amazing job holding it together. praying for a much quicker timeline that you were quoted!

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  8. I agree with a post from above...God is working EXTRA hard on this little miracle - and it will be all kinds of perfect once his plan is revealed.

    Praying for you!

    Brooke
    www.theannessafamily.blogspot.com

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  9. It is so hard to re-adjust your expectations when you've mentally prepared for one set of circumstances and are now facing something entirely different. It is definitely one of the most difficult parts of the adoption process.

    I'm glad you've been able to find peace.

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  10. So sorry! Everyone warns of the unexpected turns this adoption journey can take you on, but I think we are never really prepared for that. So good that you can turn this process over to a higher power and have faith that it's all going according to plan, even if it's not your plan. Hugs!

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  11. This is such a hard thing to come to terms with. We were told 6 to 9 months and we just passed the year mark. But here's what I think - you may be ready, but maybe the child God wants you to parent...is not. Getting to a good place isn't easy, but I'm proud of you for working through it. Keep sharing when it gets hard. Let friends help you through the tough times. Sending hugs!

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  12. ugh. this is so hard, huh? one thing i've learned... waits still change and sometimes for the better. we were most recently told 10 months and we got our call at 8.5. praying your wait changes again, but in a GOOD way!

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  13. The wait is so hard. Finding peace during the wait is hard. I was completely nuts the entire time. I can't wait for you to be at the end of the wait.

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  14. Praying for you. It sounds like you have a lot of peace. That's great! This journey ends beautifully. Hang in there. Let me know if you need support...

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  15. Will be praying for you that God brings your perfect little angel to you in His timing and not the agencies.

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