OK, I'm going to start out saying that I've been working on this post for over a week but I can't quite seem to put it into words.
There is a lot of uncertainty in our lives right now. Anyone who has experienced adoption can relate to that though it's not the only area of uncertainty it is one of the most prominent. We're struggling with some aspects - trying to get information, make some decisions, and, of course, WAIT. In the mean time there are some other things going on so what I've really had to do is pray. I've had to give this over to God and let go. That is extremely hard for me.
I remember when I was younger a friend of mine had FROG stickers (Fully Rely On God - with a cute little frog). It was cute and a great message, I thought it was fun. But I don't think I spent enough time contemplating what that actually looked like. It is at times like this that I have the opportunity to truly experience that. In a way it's a gift, though one that is very difficult for me to accept. A gift to let God do what is best in our lives. He knows and I don't. To fully rely on Him it means letting my life really go in the direction He wants which is awesome! And scary! But I'm trying and I praise Him for the opportunity.
Thanks for listening. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!