Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Greater than Hope and 16 months

Hope continues. I will hope until that hope is fulfilled. But even greater than hope, is love.

The love I have for our child even though I don't know who this child is.

There's also the love from family and friends that is sometimes so wonderful and overwhelming that it brings tears to my eyes.

The love I have for these wonderful people in our lives.

Love is a gift and I am so thankful for that! "And now these three remain, faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love." 1 Cor 13:13

It's been 16 months since we started this crazy journey and the wait was really starting to get to me. So yesterday, after an emotional roller coaster of a day, I decided to give up waiting for lent (yes, I'm a week late, I'm not Catholic so it's not something I feel compelled to do unless I have a good thing to give up). I think it will be healthy for me and good for our family. ;)

I'm not giving up hope, just the anxiety of waiting. Hopefully in that time we'll get a referral and that would be fantastic! If not, then we'll be much closer by the time Easter is here. My anxiety isn't going to make it happen any faster. I have no control, so I'm putting my faith in the One who does, and trusting His perfect timing!


  1. Happy 16 months! We are at 15 today. I always know when it hits another month because I have you to remind me:) weird we signed up exactly a month apart. I was just going to go and blog about it! Im giving up the anxiety too. So far it has been working. Good luck:)

  2. that's a wonderful thing to give up. Give it up to the One who is strong enough to carry it.

  3. Perfectly spoken! I am proud of you! :)

  4. Absolutely love this Christy! I have been working to give up the anxiety of waiting as well (though I hadn't quite had the words to describe it until you said it), realizing that I need to accept that I have no control about receiving updates on our son, when we will travel, or anything else about this process. All I can do is be thankful for what I have right now and put my trust in the Lord, as you said.

    In answer to your question, no orders yet, but they have told us we are going to Tucson, AZ - I have been meaning to post about this!

  5. i am so impressed with you, christy! again, what wonderful perspective and attitude...praying for you!!!